It's the Waiting Game

Only 18 days until my due date! However, I have this feeling that the baby is coming this week or possibly weekend. The baby has dropped as low as he possibly can, without actually being born. I am dilated to a two (which I laugh about saying or posting on here because I feel like talking about how dilated I am is one of those things you don't say as it involves your private parts, LOL!!). Of course that's assuming that anyone even reads this blog. Our midwife also tells us the cervix has thinned out 75%, again one of those things that just seems like TMI (too much information)n. Anyhow, all this leads up to the fact that the arrival of my baby boy is getting close. I have had a few false contractions, referred to as Braxton Hicks, which is supposedly preparing my body for the real thing. I don't see how false contractions are going to prepare me for the most excruciating pain of my life, but okay, that's what the midwife tells me. I'm getting nervous about the labor and delivery, but excited about finally meeting our little boy. I've waited 9 1/2 long months for this day and in reality I've waited many years for this day, which I started to believe would never happen, until of course I met my sweet husband, Dan.

Of course, I am faced with a dilemma, which is a name for a sweet baby boy. I thought we had agreed on Harper Donovan, but about two weeks ago Dan tells me he doesn't like Harper now. How can he tell me this 9 months into the pregnancy and after at least 8 month of referring to my baby bump as Harper? SO NOT RIGHT! We have agreed that I get the first name of our first born and he gets the middle name, so he has also said I can still name him Harper if I chose to, but wanted me to know how he felt about it. I feel like the baby is already Harper, so I'm not sure I want to change it, however I also hate to think that my husband doesn't care for it. I did ask for guidance in a prayer though one night regarding the name and woke up with the name Maddox, which I also like and Dan likes as well (and no I had no idea it was Angelina Jolie's son's name before hand, I guess I don't follow the tabloids). I'm just not sure it feels right yet. It's a Welsh name and means good and generous, which is certainly a positive. I am just hoping that when I hold the baby for the first time I'll know what to name him and it'll just feel right. I don't want to be that couple that leaves the hospital without a baby name, but anything is possible.

Also, I'd like to point out I've learned a very valuable lesson here with the baby's name. Never tell your families what you think you are going to name the baby before the baby arrives. Keep that between you and your husband, because really the decision is up to the parents, not our families (yeah dad's I'm blasting your asses on here, haha!). I just can't believe all the grief I have gotten from both of the fathers and the truth is I would of expected it more from the mothers, but I guess they've been through this already so they can relate and have been great about it. If and when we have another baby, the fathers will not be privy to the name before hand, cause I don't want to hear it! And my brother in law also made a very good point......it's the child that makes the name, not the name that makes the child.